| i'm gonna ant a little to get this emo shit off my chest. i hate women. they are without question the most heartless cold, judgemental scum in the entirety of existence.
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| where to begin. january is not a good month for my life. my aunt deb deb. i'm dealing i suppose. i really haven't known her to well in recent years but she was there alot when i was younger.
i still haven't dealt with my grandmas death. i miss her soo much it burns. i wake up crying most days. thats something i don't tell too many people. i'm crying writing this but i need to get some things off my chest. i don't know if i'll ever be ok with her death. this year has been bad. i get better i get worse but mostly just worse.
to top things off, i know things. things i wish badly to tell others but i just can't, it's eating me up inside.
another thing, i love this girl. like really really love her. thats weird for me to begin with. but i can deal with that. the issue is that she is doing bad. like alot of really bad shit is happenng to her and all i want to do is hold her and tell her everything will be ok. but i can't. one she is in florida and two i'm pretty sure her boyfriend wouldn't appreciate that.
i'm lonely, i want a girl friend but i panic when i get one.
i feel like a whiny bitch write now. i hate complaining but i just needed to say this stuff. it's been a year ish since i did anything.
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| Rhoda leiman the best grandma i could ever ask for. i can't express in words or letters how much i loved you and how much you have effected my life all for the better. i hope the scene dad makes at your funeral (to which he isn't invited) won't dishonor you too much... thank you for everything you've done for me.
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| i just read through some of my past blog entry's and wow i'm always obsessed with getting a girl! lol
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| ok it's been quite quite a long time since i updated this thing. so...here we go. life has been life it's been good, bad and downright disturbing all at the same time. in the past six months i have lent my mom almost all the money i had. all in all it comes to around 4 grand and thats not counting the multiple multiple times i've paid for her phone or insurance cause they are both in my name and would hurt my credit if i didn't. thats the disturbing but it's almost over now.
my luck with women has varied from the so so to the abusive relationship. i'd like to point out i only realized it was an obusive relationship today when a girl gave a speech on them in class.
on a different note i have several girls who want to go out with me but i just can't deal with their personalities. it's sad i don't even have high standards i just can't seem to settle when it comes to personality.
so here is the breakdown. there's a few girls i like but it's kinda iffy if they like me at all and i'm not sure what i'm really looking for.
but over all life is life
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